Struggling through with joy... |
kind of.
Struggling through with joy... |
For the past three years I have purchased a planner that includes a habit tracker. In fact, I paid more for this planner, it was so important to me to create and maintain good, new habits.
There is a lot of room for improvement in the way I live. No one ever ever observes me and says, “That LaReina is a real type-A person. She knows how to get things done.” They might say, “That LaReina really knows how to create a fortress of books she wants to read around her bed,” or “Boyo, LaReina is an ace at ignoring piles of laundry and baking cookies instead. Look at how she’s left that pile for three weeks! That’s impressive.” So I decided, three years ago, to put real, consistent and precise effort into improving. It’s worked to some degree. I meditate every day. I’m on time to work more often than I’m not. I exercise at least a few times a week. The laundry is still a problem. Earlier this week my son wore a shorts/warm up pants combination that was questionable in terms of fashion, but clean. This week, though, I’ve thrown caution to the wind and I’m not completing the habit tracker. I haven’t even cracked open my trusty little black planner. I ran out of time to do it Sunday night (laundry) and avoided it Monday. I grew rebellious Tuesday, thinking “Eff that habit tracker, I’m not doing it!” And here we are on Wednesday. All hell has not broken loose. I’ve still meditated every day, and on Monday I walked two miles. I feel kind of free, not having to visit my habit tracker and think, “Can I fill in a half circle for exercise if I did a brain break with my students?” It turns out I have actually developed some good habits. It turns out it’s ok to take a little vacation from self-improvement. Next week I’ll get my little black planner out again, and I’ll keep trying to improve. This week is acceptance week
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Natasha
3/10/2021 06:40:09 pm
I love this post. I love these lines: "“That LaReina really knows how to create a fortress of books she wants to read around her bed,” or “Boyo, LaReina is an ace at ignoring piles of laundry and baking cookies instead. Look at how she’s left that pile for three weeks! That’s impressive.” I wish there was a world where people would say that. And I also love the ending. Giving oneself a vacation from self-improvement and taking a week for acceptance sounds like a wonderful practice, too.
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