Struggling through with joy... |
kind of.
Struggling through with joy... |
I think I nearly sleep about halfway through
Thoughts intrude Colors drift from the bottom of my eyelids to the top Yellow turns to blue, joins in the center, floats to the top Thoughts intrude: An angry student worrying me; what to buy at the store I breathe. I recite my sacred word This is the practice The simplest, quietest practice The hardest practice To know God Perhaps To know the interior of our heart Where the nuns tell us God resides I am thinking of groceries An angry, hurting little boy That’s not God And yet My husband is pleased by The easiness of my laugh that afternoon The day unfolds and I do not resist Time expands and I with it Easy hours of children playing Napping Laundry sorting Dog walking My heart and mind are quiet Almost almost content Be still and know that I am God The nun recites We are still But I do not know Is this God? These colors behind my eyes The twist and release in the front of my mind The acceptance, later Of minor changes in plans A child with a cold Who will not nap Dinner later than I like Too much laundry My heart and mind are quiet Almost Almost content The nuns do not promise Anything big “You will not become Mother Teresa” One says; We laugh. You will need less Stuff Affirmation Information She tells us. If you practice. I could do with less needing. Be still and know The nun says As we settle into silence. Be still. Be.
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Meggin Verduzco
3/4/2018 05:58:47 pm
This is beautiful. The cadence of your poem reflects the subject matter. Interestingly enough, I wrote about something similar- mindfulness. I guess we both need to keep practicing...
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Sonja
3/4/2018 07:03:57 pm
gorgeous poem. I struggle with mindfulness, as well. "almost, almost content." yep.
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3/5/2018 05:01:25 pm
Yes. Be still. But it can be hard to find God even when we are still. I think he is in the angry child, the laundry, the napping...he's in every moment. We just have to look.
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